I’m finding it hard to be in a relationship with you right now. I guess it’s been challenging from the start. At first I struggled in our relationship because I missed my previous love so much it was hard to fully embrace you. Later, it was just a rocky road getting used to living with you and adapting to your ways. I committed to you though, and stopped comparing you to others and tried to really get to know you and work out how you tick. I’ve had to really study you to try and understand you in the hope that with more understanding my heart will continue to open to you.
I have been pleasantly surprised by many aspects of your character and physical beauty. I have also felt betrayal and disappointment as I opened up and trusted you and that trust was abused in ways I never would have expected. Through it all I held on to you and my dream for us and I fully committed to you. I went all the way with you.
I have to say though that recently you have started to really scare me. I’m seeing a side to you that I have been told was always there, but I hadn’t really seen on parade the way it is at present. I see a side to you that I find very difficult to reconcile. I forgive you for so much and try to accept you with all your flaws because I have learned about your history and I know how you have become what you are today but there are some parts of you that I have a very hard time living with. I hope I can continue to see your beauty and not let your dark side over shadow your light so much that I need to end my relationship with you.
I have invested so much in this relationship. I have really tried to love you fully America. Breaking up with you would break my heart profoundly. Please try to be the best you can be…for your own good.
Yours truly. X
December 10, 2015